say "tired!"

I’m not in the mood, I’m not in the mood to write good things, good life of me. I’m not in the mood, everyone.

Seems it’s so hard to hold on, extremely difficult to keep on.
When 2 persons have to be together in such long time, even years are not enough to fit in each other,
When let say you have a willing to have a kind of better relationship but the thing happening is not the same as you expect…
Let say when you wanna be heard, and noone can listen.
Let say when you wanna have someone to understand you, but the only thing that come in is nothing….
When feed up filling ur mind, when everything suck like taking over you, what on earth is going on indeed?? Have no idea, everybody….

Sometimes having relationship is really tiring, when you have a different point of view, a much different of it, when you have an-extremely-different-mindset, when you have such a different world with a huge gap between it, when you feel so tired to continually passing the same trouble which is ever never ending.

Can you feel it, huh??

Can I change it?? Can I change the condition, or ‘everything’??
What should I do, then?? Have any idea? Everything seems blurred, nothing clear…

Tired.tired.tired.
Nothing can do.nothing can do.nothing can do.
When will it be last??

Just wanna have a better relationship, just wanna have a better life, and I can handle myself, truly handle and control myself…